| *Sigh*.... iono.. i juss feel like Sh*t right now..... i feel like i wasnt doing my part as a bf since ive the lost the one person who would always lighten up my day...i mean all my friends do, but her.... she's special....being with her feels as if im in heaven nd now i was sent back down nd stuck in between..gosh.... i dont even kno wut im saying anymore..... i shouldnt really let this get to me coz something happened during summer school that hurt me a lot!!!! but i hid those feelings... i mean.. i only showed sadness in the outside....anger stayed in,but was slowly building up....dayum.... i shudnt even have gotten jealous coz i sorta knew already that shes a BIG flirt.... maybe this is why we're apart now...*sigh* iono.... when i was at the hospital today waiting at the lobby.... i was listening to my cd player nd these love songs started playing.... i listened to it carefully& suddenly i realize something...... i realized that i showed no sign of sadness when i see the words," lets juss be frnds" i realized that i had juss lost the one true thing i love nd dayum.... i was about to burst in tears...man....i cant continue writing anymore... 3 month anniversary is comin' up in 2 days but now....iono... its 2 months n 2 1/2 weeks down the drain.... there still is a chance, but i doubt its gonna happen.... i wish it wud tho.... id really hate for this relationship juss to end like this...especially since we've been through A LOT this summer.... waaay too much drama, nd through it all, i did my best to keep her happy nd not worry too much about it....i guess this is it 4 now....
June 5,2oo4-August 31,2oo4
Lets hope for the best nd hopefully we'll be back together again.... i juss wanna say thanks for what an amazing experience you've given me... nd this is wut i love you for.
juss remember: You'll always have a place in my heart & I'll always love you for the person you've madee become nd for the person u are!!!!
song dedicated for this is...
"My Place"
(feat. Jaheim)
I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want u with no other man
Why can't u understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world but you just wanted arguing
From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped u off again
Even flipped out on me at the mall again
"it's all his fault again" that's what u telling all ya friends
I aint pointing fingers ma, I just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got a little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do it better for ya, cause
[Bridge]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
[Chorus]
Won't you come on and go with me
Come on ova to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
And let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way
I heard your friend told a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this aint the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I aint got no issue's with hitting at another time
We never had a problem gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma but the sex wasn't one
Now check it I know u get excited (still) when I come round and bite it (girl)
Quit frowin up and quit actin like you don't like
I like it, I like it, I really, really like it, I want it, adore it, so come let me enjoy it
[Bridge]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
[Chorus]
Won't you come on and go with me
Come on ova to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
And let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way
Shawty where u been
Feels like a long time, long, long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, when I know I said some fucked up things to u before
But girl u know I didn't mean it
(I didn't mean one single word)
(I never meant one single word)
If I could take back every word I would and more fo sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convenient for me
[Bridge]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
[Chorus]
Won't you come on and go with me
Come on ova to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
And let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way
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..... juss when me n cayse were doing better w/ da problems....freakin SHIET man!!!! i was so0o0o excited to go back to school again too!!!!! she fucc'n knows i hate it here........ she juss wants tah leave me here coz she sees me happy in LA nd not here nd she juss wants me to feel like she is.... ehh w/e.... if i dont go back.... all i wanna say is... IM REALLY GONNA MISS ALL OF U..... EVERYONE I TALK TO.... man..... i dont even get a chance to say good-bye in person n shiet.... FUCK!!!! THIS IS ALL JUSS BS!!!!!! well anways... i told cat nd cayse the news nd they were both shocked or sumn like dat.... aden my mom pulled the freakin phone line so i wud get dc from the net.... freakin BITCH!!! ughhh she fucc'n pisses me off!!! so0o0o anyways... i juss ignored everything she told me after she dc me nd i was juss watchin MTV as always nd a few hours later, Cat gives me a call... i was like Wo0t Wo0t!!!! haha... we were talkin fer hours.... 4 hours on n off to be exact.....lol... this girls hella tyt... ralph wud b lucky if he gets with her...ok so0o0o i guess this is it.... all i have to say.
